When the weather gets hot sometimes it’s hard to know what kind of cool treat to give your toddler or baby that’s not full of dies or sugar. This was a hit! My toddler loved it and my baby ( 9 months) chased him around to steal it from him till it was gone 😜

I feel like i’ve been spiritually vomiting for the past year. That there are things that keep coming up and out of me that I didn't;t even realize were there. I always come to this place where I feel I can’t possibly surrender anything more, that everything that I know to surrender is surrendered and given up. That all my control is given up. Then it happens all over again on a new level. This past week was one of those times.

Josh grabbed his pillow and blanket and went to sleep on the couch.

I was sick. Absolutely sick. I was sure this was the end. Only 3 months into marriage and we already aren’t sleeping together.

The first few months went by- we had good times and we had really bad times. The good times were mostly wrought on my us trying to compensate for all the heartache though.

The rehearsal was over, the people left and it was just Josh and I sitting on the front porch of my parents house watching the sunset go down on the last evening we would be apart. It should have been an evening of great joy and anticipation but instead we were sitting there asking each other if we should just call of the wedding.